I'm is still trying to recover from Monday and it's Wednesday. I have also been working my ass off trying to get our horse arena cleared of brush, so that is definitely added to my soreness and tiredness.
Ever since I was 18. I have been attracted to guys in their 40's. Mainly because of the directness I think comes with age. There is less game playing when you get older. The other thing I have always been attracted to is a guy who is cocky. I refer to this as being an asshole, but it is really about someone who has confidence. They know they have something that your gonna like and keep coming back for. I also have tended to be with guys that are in the car business. Obviously since I've been in the car business for 10 years this makes sense. You tend to gravitate toward people your around all the time and people you have things in common with. It is also because guys that are in the car business have a cockiness about them. You have to be that way to sell cars. I'm that way too.
Well ten years later and I'm still attracted to cocky guys in their 40's. I had gotten away from this over the past year. I had mainly been with younger guys since I moved to mn. and I saw this as part of my problem. Recently I had been communicating with a guy I sold cars with out here. He is in 40's and definitely has a cockiness about him. When we worked together I thought he couldn't stand me. Probably part of the reason I'm sorta attracted to him. There is also the fact is a former marine. I have a soft spot for military - kinda plays into the cocky/asshole thing I like. Anyways, the only issue was he isn't my traditional type in looks department. Basically short and a little chubby. Not normally what I go for. Except at this point I was starting not to care. I had heard him talk about his sex life before and had a feeling he was a pretty good lay. So I might have to lower my standards to be able to have a bunch of orgasms - I think I can live with this fact.
So Monday we planned to get together for the first time when he got done with work. Funny side note - he warned me that he was "not a small guy." I had to laugh, I just responded that size is relative and I'm sure I would be fine. He text me he was gonna be late. I decided to go to the local bar and watch Monday night football while I waited. O.k. here is where it gets interesting. So I'm at this bar for about 3 hours. There aren't that many people in there, but I did notice one cute guy. Long story short, bar guy doesn't get the balls up to talk to me until I'm about to leave. Now I have a dilemma, I have a sure thing waiting for me but bar guy is really cute. I text my friend asking her what to do. She actually gave me great advice - she said go do your sure thing, but make sure you get bar guy's number. If you try to flirt with bar guy tonight - your gonna come on too strong cause your horny and your gonna scare him away. She was right I was coming on way too strong, so I gave him my number and left.
Oh, most guys I make reference to will have nick-names. So sure thing guy will now be known as hunter-guy (he likes to hunt.) So I get to hunter guys house at about 11. I won't give you play by play but it was surprisingly really good. We talked for awhile and then from about 1am to about 3 am got down to business. Then again from about 5:30 am to about 7 am. I got a total of about an hour of sleep, but that's o.k. I had lots of orgasms and that's all that's important. Oh and he said I was an 8 out of 10 as far as being good in bed. Not bad for the first time.
Well if all else fails at least I know hunter guy will make a good FTF which I know his is more than happy to be.
Yes I know I'm crazy and have issues, but that's o.k.! I kinda like the fact that I'm different. Well I'm actually not that different I just talk about stuff others won't.
Well now that I got laid, I can focus on all the stuff I have to do. I leave for Green Bay Friday morning and I still have to pack. I also have to get prepared for l.a. Not to mention I have a lot of other stuff to do - like try and find a job!
Hopefully you will find these last 3 blogs interesting. That's enough personal information for me to put out onto the web for one day.
Have a great one!!
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Mandy's Sex Life - past year
Well I'm not going to go into to every sorted detail, but you need an overview for some things to make sense. Before moving to Minnesota, I had a very happy, healthy sex life. Obviously there were some bumps, but for the most part I was pretty content. Finding a FTF is l.a. was pretty easy. As funny as it sounds, the last guy I was with in L.A. was a recommendation. One of the guys I worked with was tired of hearing me bitch about how I hadn't gotten laid in 3 months. Oh by the way, 3 months of no sex is always my breaking point. I start to do really stupid things when that happens. I get bitchy after 2 weeks no sex, so you can imagine 3 months. Anyways my co-worker told me he had a friend who was single and didn't want a relationship and had a big cock. All very good things in my mind. Now how one guy knows another guys penis size, I don't really want to know, but whatever. It turned out to be true. Anyways, I started hooking up with Eric (the friend) about 3 months before I move to MN. He was phenomenal in bed and very well endowed (10+) Now I know this is t.m.i., but it 's important I promise. This being with a "big" guy thing had been a pattern for me for about the past 2 years. It was like all of sudden I had a sign of my forehead that said I could handle big penis and they seeked me out. Not that I'm complaining.
So, life was happy (at least in the sex department). I was getting laid properly at least twice a week. Then I go and decide to move half way across the country. I was having a lot of personal issues and at the very least needed a change of pace and a break from the craziness. Eric was very upset when I told him I was moving but I had to do what I had to do.
Now it's February in Minnesota. It's cold. I know very few people and I'm started to get horny. I'm not going to go through every single encounter, but here is an overview. The first couple of guys I hooked up with were absolutely gorgeous. Great bodies, good looks, but absolutely horrible in bed (and average 6-7.) One quick note on the size thing - there is nothing wrong with average if you know what your doing. I had just been used to bigger and it takes time for your body to adjust (about 6 months.) Then I thought o.k. maybe it's mn. guys or maybe it's just cause they were really hot and didn't feel they needed to try as hard. I went with the later. I refused to believe I couldn't find a decent lay in this state. Although I was starting to worry there was no shortage of small penis in this state, especially since I had been told this by many people. I felt I could deal with a "small guy" if he was good in bed (or at least tried.) So I decided to give the short, fat guy a go. Now he was kinda of an asshole and a big flirt (which is so my type) and somehow managed to pull some very nice pink. He was a decent lay and was o.k. with the FTF arrangement. This lasted for about 3 months until I meet my last boyfriend. He was great in bed, but wanted more than an FTF arrangement. Against my better judgement I decided to be his girlfriend. Well that ended about 2 months ago. So back to square one again. A couple weeks after the break-up I hooked up with my two beautiful boys again. It was actually pretty good but just a temporary fix. Then the past month and half was weird. I don't know quite how to explain this. Basically, I messed around with two different guys during that time, but no sex happened. They were fun sexual experiences, but not 100% fulfilling.
So there was a couple different things going on in my mind. In a few weeks, I will be in L.A. and I will definitely be getting laid and properly. But then there is also the fact that it's been two months no penis! L.A. will make it 3 months and remember 3 months - bad! What's a girl to do? Now it didn't help that I've been talking to a friend that is very sexual also. I don't know why - but when your a sexual person and if you are around other sexually charged people, it makes things worse - meaning you get hornier than normal. So I'm horny and l.a. is still a month away. There was a guy I'd been talking to but he feel into the short, fat category. Eeehhhhh, what to do? And for those of you thinking - how bout toys or self stimulation. Well I already do that on an average of 5 times a day. There are just times when you need penis. So ideally I want to find an FTF out here, but on the other hand I just need to get laid, but I really hate one night stands.
Well the solution is in the next blog, which will explain what happened Monday night.
Stay tuned....
So, life was happy (at least in the sex department). I was getting laid properly at least twice a week. Then I go and decide to move half way across the country. I was having a lot of personal issues and at the very least needed a change of pace and a break from the craziness. Eric was very upset when I told him I was moving but I had to do what I had to do.
Now it's February in Minnesota. It's cold. I know very few people and I'm started to get horny. I'm not going to go through every single encounter, but here is an overview. The first couple of guys I hooked up with were absolutely gorgeous. Great bodies, good looks, but absolutely horrible in bed (and average 6-7.) One quick note on the size thing - there is nothing wrong with average if you know what your doing. I had just been used to bigger and it takes time for your body to adjust (about 6 months.) Then I thought o.k. maybe it's mn. guys or maybe it's just cause they were really hot and didn't feel they needed to try as hard. I went with the later. I refused to believe I couldn't find a decent lay in this state. Although I was starting to worry there was no shortage of small penis in this state, especially since I had been told this by many people. I felt I could deal with a "small guy" if he was good in bed (or at least tried.) So I decided to give the short, fat guy a go. Now he was kinda of an asshole and a big flirt (which is so my type) and somehow managed to pull some very nice pink. He was a decent lay and was o.k. with the FTF arrangement. This lasted for about 3 months until I meet my last boyfriend. He was great in bed, but wanted more than an FTF arrangement. Against my better judgement I decided to be his girlfriend. Well that ended about 2 months ago. So back to square one again. A couple weeks after the break-up I hooked up with my two beautiful boys again. It was actually pretty good but just a temporary fix. Then the past month and half was weird. I don't know quite how to explain this. Basically, I messed around with two different guys during that time, but no sex happened. They were fun sexual experiences, but not 100% fulfilling.
So there was a couple different things going on in my mind. In a few weeks, I will be in L.A. and I will definitely be getting laid and properly. But then there is also the fact that it's been two months no penis! L.A. will make it 3 months and remember 3 months - bad! What's a girl to do? Now it didn't help that I've been talking to a friend that is very sexual also. I don't know why - but when your a sexual person and if you are around other sexually charged people, it makes things worse - meaning you get hornier than normal. So I'm horny and l.a. is still a month away. There was a guy I'd been talking to but he feel into the short, fat category. Eeehhhhh, what to do? And for those of you thinking - how bout toys or self stimulation. Well I already do that on an average of 5 times a day. There are just times when you need penis. So ideally I want to find an FTF out here, but on the other hand I just need to get laid, but I really hate one night stands.
Well the solution is in the next blog, which will explain what happened Monday night.
Stay tuned....
The weekend - Harleys and shotguns!
Wow - these past few days have been crazy. It's gonna take 3 blogs to fill you in. This one will be short. Just a couple funny things that happened over the weekend. My aunt was out of town and told me that our friend Rick needed to come over to pick up some band equipment. Rick is an old family friend. He has know my mom and aunt since they were kids. He's kinda like an uncle to me. Anyways, Lisa said she told Rick that I would call him around 1pm, since this is when I normally wake up. I was offended by this remark since I had been busting my ass all week cleaning barn and lately I have been up no later than 8am. I told her I would call him in the morning. Well Friday after having lunch with my cousin and friend and their daughters, I decided to clean barn and workout. I had one too many energy drinks at lunch and over did it. I cleaned barn for 2 hours, then went on a 3 mile run, then did an hour work-out. After that I was up till about mid-night doing random things - cleaning, making to-do lists, etc. Needless to say, I didn't wake up till 1:45pm on Saturday! Oh well. Rick came over around 2:30 and I was still in p.j.s. He asked if I wanted to go on a Harley ride. I thought it was a great idea, since the weather won't allow that for very much longer. He was a little concerned about my back and I told him I would be fine. About half way through the ride he asked how I was doing - I said fine. Then he asked how the vibration was and I said "I like it." He laughed so hard I thought he was going to crash. He forgets that my mind is constantly in the gutter. Anyways we went to dinner and I told him all about my FTF thing and I thought this little old lady behind me was gonna have a heart-attack! Oh well - that's what she gets for ease-dropping. Rick dropped me off and I asked him if he could teach me how to shoot a shotgun since it gets scary on the farm when Lisa is out of town and the only gun she has is a 12-gauge shot gun. He said yes.
So Sunday, I went over to Rick's and he taught me how to shoot. I can't tell you how great it was. I had a mini-orgasm every time that gun went off. He was teaching me how to jack the shell through the chamber after each shot. I lost track of the rounds and I said "hey Rick did I jack off the gun?" He started laughing hysterically. He told me I have a funny sense of humor. I wasn't really trying to be funny, it's just the brain in the gutter syndrome and I don't know weapon terminology.
One other funny Rick thing then I'm done with this blog. When Lisa got home Monday night from work, she ran in the house and grabbed the phone and said she had to make a very important phone call. She said it was Rick's b-day. So we wished him a happy birthday. Rick told Lisa that his step-son Chris saw him with me on the Harley on Saturday and wondered who the cute blond was. Rick told him it was me and Lisa said he shouldn't have it, would have been a good running joke. Rick said "yeah right - everyone knows the only way I can get a cute blond like Mandy is to pay." Lisa then said "you don't have to pay Mandy, she's free." I'm like gee thanks Lisa.
Great weekend all in all. I had fun and did fun and new things. This takes you to Monday, which is when all the fun happened, but I'm gonna have to do some back story so Monday makes more sense. So that will be the next blog, which I really suggest you read.
Hugs and Kisses!
So Sunday, I went over to Rick's and he taught me how to shoot. I can't tell you how great it was. I had a mini-orgasm every time that gun went off. He was teaching me how to jack the shell through the chamber after each shot. I lost track of the rounds and I said "hey Rick did I jack off the gun?" He started laughing hysterically. He told me I have a funny sense of humor. I wasn't really trying to be funny, it's just the brain in the gutter syndrome and I don't know weapon terminology.
One other funny Rick thing then I'm done with this blog. When Lisa got home Monday night from work, she ran in the house and grabbed the phone and said she had to make a very important phone call. She said it was Rick's b-day. So we wished him a happy birthday. Rick told Lisa that his step-son Chris saw him with me on the Harley on Saturday and wondered who the cute blond was. Rick told him it was me and Lisa said he shouldn't have it, would have been a good running joke. Rick said "yeah right - everyone knows the only way I can get a cute blond like Mandy is to pay." Lisa then said "you don't have to pay Mandy, she's free." I'm like gee thanks Lisa.
Great weekend all in all. I had fun and did fun and new things. This takes you to Monday, which is when all the fun happened, but I'm gonna have to do some back story so Monday makes more sense. So that will be the next blog, which I really suggest you read.
Hugs and Kisses!
Friday, October 15, 2010
couple updates then topics of the day - spitting game and FTF's
I had a realization today. I'm going to the Packer/Vikings game at Lambeau Field next weekend. How am I supposed to loose 10 lbs by November 1st when I'm gonna be in the land of cheese, bratwurst and beer. These are some of my favorite things. Oh well - I'll figure something out. I'm super excited about getting to visit l.a., I can't wait. My mom did some magic to make it happen and I'm so grateful. I can't wait to see my friends, especially my boys. I miss hanging out with the guys I used to work with at the dealer back home so much. I haven't been able to bond with anyone out here like I did with those guys, of course I've known them for close to ten years. The one thing I found funny is how one of the first calls I made was to make sure I'm gonna get handled. I'm so messed in the head sometimes. What can I say? I have needs!
Which leads me nicely into the topic of the day. Spitting game. I got told recently ways to improve my game. I found this hysterical. Mainly because of who it came from. The advice was to play hard to get. This isn't bad advice, it just doesn't suit what I'm trying to achieve. It is my opinion that when most people spit game they are trying to achieve one of two goals. Either they are trying to get laid that night or they are trying to meet someone that can be potential dating material. Since my goal is a little different, my game is a little different. I have no desire to be in a relationship, nor do I have any desire for a one night stand. I prefer to have what most people call "friends with benefits." I hate that term because it reminds me of high school. I prefer to call it FTF's (friends that f...) It is basically when two people get together a couple times a week to have sex. It's great if you can hangout as friends also, but for me that is not a requirement. In fact for me the less socializing outside of the bedroom the better. Now I know people having many varying opinions on this and believe me I've heard them all. This is just something that has worked for me. Anytime I tried something else, like marriage for example, I got burned. Now just so we are clear on my whole FTF thing. I am committed to the person I'm with, in the sense that I don't sleep with anyone else. I hope the other person is the same way, but I don't have any real expectation that they are. The couple times I was in these kind of relationships, they lasted a very long time. One last 2 years and the other 3 years. I am just someone that doesn't deal well with commitment and these relationships give me what I need.
I will definitely talk about this more in the future, especially because I have failed miserably trying to find this kind of relationship out here. Not really that surprising since people are more conservative out here. Well to a certain extent. There are a lot of freaky people in this state. Actually I think people out here are more sexual or at least more sexually adventurous, they just don't talk about it at all. I have gotten hit up for more three-somes and all kinds of other sexual acts since I've been out here. A whole lot more than I ever did in l.a.
O.k. that's it for tonight. I will leave you to ponder this though - Is it possible to find someone that is crazy in bed without them being crazy in the head?
Have a great Friday!
Which leads me nicely into the topic of the day. Spitting game. I got told recently ways to improve my game. I found this hysterical. Mainly because of who it came from. The advice was to play hard to get. This isn't bad advice, it just doesn't suit what I'm trying to achieve. It is my opinion that when most people spit game they are trying to achieve one of two goals. Either they are trying to get laid that night or they are trying to meet someone that can be potential dating material. Since my goal is a little different, my game is a little different. I have no desire to be in a relationship, nor do I have any desire for a one night stand. I prefer to have what most people call "friends with benefits." I hate that term because it reminds me of high school. I prefer to call it FTF's (friends that f...) It is basically when two people get together a couple times a week to have sex. It's great if you can hangout as friends also, but for me that is not a requirement. In fact for me the less socializing outside of the bedroom the better. Now I know people having many varying opinions on this and believe me I've heard them all. This is just something that has worked for me. Anytime I tried something else, like marriage for example, I got burned. Now just so we are clear on my whole FTF thing. I am committed to the person I'm with, in the sense that I don't sleep with anyone else. I hope the other person is the same way, but I don't have any real expectation that they are. The couple times I was in these kind of relationships, they lasted a very long time. One last 2 years and the other 3 years. I am just someone that doesn't deal well with commitment and these relationships give me what I need.
I will definitely talk about this more in the future, especially because I have failed miserably trying to find this kind of relationship out here. Not really that surprising since people are more conservative out here. Well to a certain extent. There are a lot of freaky people in this state. Actually I think people out here are more sexual or at least more sexually adventurous, they just don't talk about it at all. I have gotten hit up for more three-somes and all kinds of other sexual acts since I've been out here. A whole lot more than I ever did in l.a.
O.k. that's it for tonight. I will leave you to ponder this though - Is it possible to find someone that is crazy in bed without them being crazy in the head?
Have a great Friday!
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Halloween - l.a.
So not feeling the greatest today, but wanted to post a couple of quick things which I'll expand on tomorrow. First - I'm going home to l.a. to visit for a week! I leave November 1! Only downside is this speeds up my fitness goal by 2 weeks. Good thing I only have 10 lbs. to go. I'm extremely excited and can't wait to see my mom and friends.
Second thing - I was talking to one of my friends yesterday about what I should be for Halloween - I told her that the requirement was to be something slutty - she said "that's easy - go as yourself." I said "very funny, I was thinking of going as a dominatrix (sp?)" she says "like I said - go as yourself." I told her she was a bitch and laughed and then I said your right. Anyways - that's the kind of abuse I get from my friends - truth hurts right? The whole conversation cracked me up. I had to share. So I am going to be a dominatrix - should be slutty enough at least. Oh and my aunt asked me what a dominatrix was - that was fun to explain!
Well that's it for tonight.
Hope you all have a good one!
Second thing - I was talking to one of my friends yesterday about what I should be for Halloween - I told her that the requirement was to be something slutty - she said "that's easy - go as yourself." I said "very funny, I was thinking of going as a dominatrix (sp?)" she says "like I said - go as yourself." I told her she was a bitch and laughed and then I said your right. Anyways - that's the kind of abuse I get from my friends - truth hurts right? The whole conversation cracked me up. I had to share. So I am going to be a dominatrix - should be slutty enough at least. Oh and my aunt asked me what a dominatrix was - that was fun to explain!
Well that's it for tonight.
Hope you all have a good one!
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Tuesday, October 12, 2010
The reason behind my fitness goals
I am very sore today from over doing it yesterday with my workout. So this made me think that it would be a good topic to discuss. I have pretty much always had a pretty nice figure. I haven't been what you would consider skinny since high school. Once I hit my 20's I developed a nice hour glass figure complete with hips, a butt and c-cup boobs. Although my weight has fluctuated over the years, it has stayed within about 10 pounds. Since any extra weight tended to go into my hips, butt or boobs, most people didn't notice any gain. The last time I had to go on a fitness rampage was when I got engaged in 2005. At that time I was the heaviest I had ever been weighing 155 and wearing a size 8. Two things made me go on a mission to loose weight - one was the fact I had to fit into a size 2 wedding dress and two was the fact I was getting back fat (ick.) I lost over 20 lbs in time for my wedding and was able to keep off the weight, that is until I moved to Minnesota.
As I mentioned before, I moved in February. It was pretty cold, at least the first few weeks and I ate non-stop! My aunt kept joking that I was eating her out of house and home. Then there was all the fried foods and 2 for 1 and 3 for 1 beer specials. I had not been much of a drinker prior to moving here, but there isn't a whole lot else to do. I was warned by a co-worker about the beer and the weight I would put on, but I dismissed it. That was until 6 months after moving here I realized I had gone up 6 dress sizes. I went from a size 6 to a size twelve. I weighed 170 lbs!!!!! Oh and I'm 5'6. The weight distributed much differently than before. The biggest thing was I was now squishy! Yes squishy! That had never happened before. Back fat was bad enough, but squishy was horrible. Squishy in case you don't know is when you have rolls and you can see the fat! So in July I started to make a conscious effort of what I was eating. I did pretty good considering I wasn't working out at all. I got down to 156 by the end of August.
Then a couple things happened. At the beginning of September I became single again. This wasn't a huge thing because whether I am single or in a relationship I try to stay the same weight. Also no matter what weight I am if a guy doesn't like it he can go pound sand. Of course I say that, but what I say next is gonna make me look like a total hypocrite. A couple weeks after I became single, a new manager started at work. He was in his 40's, talked a lot of b.s., was good looking, coincided and a player. Totally the guy I normally go for. Keep in mind I don't like relationships, so this kind of guy is perfect - no commitment. Anyways, I was talking to him one day and he said he only dates 25 year olds and younger because they have more energy. This pissed me off for numerous reasons. One I took it as a personal rejection and two I have been having a hard time dealing with the fact I just turned 30. I can run circles around most 20 year olds, well at least in the bedroom, but that isn't something a guy knows from looking at you, all he notices is your figure and then hopes for the best I guess.
So this incident motivated me to start working out. I have been doing pretty good. Not as well as I would like, but my life has been getting in the way. Plus it's been hot and I hate working out when it's hot. I am now down to 148 and a size 8. I want to get down to 130 to 135 and be a size 4 to 6. The biggest thing is I want to look great in a bikini and have a toned body. I don't want to loose my curves or be a stick figure. I haven't had fast food in 2 months or any sweets. I refuse to give up my mountain dew though and I'm hoping I can reach my goals without having to. I did take about a week hiatus from my work out routine but I think I'm back on track now.
The thing that drives me crazes is how guys go after 25 years olds and under which I call youngens. I believe it's for a couple different reasons. They typically have tight bodies, they make guys feel good about themselves, but most importantly they are naive and put up with crap older women won't. What I don't understand is that a youngen can't be as good in bed as someone with more experience. Who cares if they make you feel good about yourself if they suck in bed? It's not like your gonna marry them. So why not try to find someone that is attractive and experienced? Why, probably goes back to my original answer, because someone older is gonna see through your b.s. There is probably also the fact that someone older is probably gonna want more than a roll in the sheets. Just cause I'm 30 and have no desire to be married or be in a really serious relationship doesn't mean all women are that way. Of course I know I am different from most women in numerous ways, which is part of the reason I get so frustrated. A person should be judged individually, not lumped into a group becausee of age.
Of course I am such a hypocrite, because from the age of 19 to the age of about 25 I always dated someone that was at least 20 years older than myself. I did it because I didn't wanna be in a committed relationship and I knew I was in no danger of guy falling in love with me and wanting to get married if he was 20 years my elder. I also did it because I wanted to learn as much about sex as possible. And sub-consciously I probably did it because I have daddy issues. So I have a lot of nerve being annoyed with guys now when I did the same thing. My only reasoning is I was not a normal youngen, I was wise beyond my years. O.k., yes I know that is such b.s., sorry it goes with being a carsales person. I guess I'm just bitter because I don't fall into the yougen category and am now at the point where I can only date so much older. I won't date younger because I refuse to train and I just can't deal with the immaturity.
Unfortunately, I have only been able to hook up with youngens since I moved to Minnesota. The only decent lay I have had in Minnesota is my ex-boyfriend, but he had way too much baggage and he was only 27. Trying to find a guy that is over 30 and still single is extremely difficult out here. Well, hopefully once I'm at my body and weight goals, I will have better luck finding a hot older guy to hook up with.
So I went on a little tangent, but I feel better now.
Have a great night!
As I mentioned before, I moved in February. It was pretty cold, at least the first few weeks and I ate non-stop! My aunt kept joking that I was eating her out of house and home. Then there was all the fried foods and 2 for 1 and 3 for 1 beer specials. I had not been much of a drinker prior to moving here, but there isn't a whole lot else to do. I was warned by a co-worker about the beer and the weight I would put on, but I dismissed it. That was until 6 months after moving here I realized I had gone up 6 dress sizes. I went from a size 6 to a size twelve. I weighed 170 lbs!!!!! Oh and I'm 5'6. The weight distributed much differently than before. The biggest thing was I was now squishy! Yes squishy! That had never happened before. Back fat was bad enough, but squishy was horrible. Squishy in case you don't know is when you have rolls and you can see the fat! So in July I started to make a conscious effort of what I was eating. I did pretty good considering I wasn't working out at all. I got down to 156 by the end of August.
Then a couple things happened. At the beginning of September I became single again. This wasn't a huge thing because whether I am single or in a relationship I try to stay the same weight. Also no matter what weight I am if a guy doesn't like it he can go pound sand. Of course I say that, but what I say next is gonna make me look like a total hypocrite. A couple weeks after I became single, a new manager started at work. He was in his 40's, talked a lot of b.s., was good looking, coincided and a player. Totally the guy I normally go for. Keep in mind I don't like relationships, so this kind of guy is perfect - no commitment. Anyways, I was talking to him one day and he said he only dates 25 year olds and younger because they have more energy. This pissed me off for numerous reasons. One I took it as a personal rejection and two I have been having a hard time dealing with the fact I just turned 30. I can run circles around most 20 year olds, well at least in the bedroom, but that isn't something a guy knows from looking at you, all he notices is your figure and then hopes for the best I guess.
So this incident motivated me to start working out. I have been doing pretty good. Not as well as I would like, but my life has been getting in the way. Plus it's been hot and I hate working out when it's hot. I am now down to 148 and a size 8. I want to get down to 130 to 135 and be a size 4 to 6. The biggest thing is I want to look great in a bikini and have a toned body. I don't want to loose my curves or be a stick figure. I haven't had fast food in 2 months or any sweets. I refuse to give up my mountain dew though and I'm hoping I can reach my goals without having to. I did take about a week hiatus from my work out routine but I think I'm back on track now.
The thing that drives me crazes is how guys go after 25 years olds and under which I call youngens. I believe it's for a couple different reasons. They typically have tight bodies, they make guys feel good about themselves, but most importantly they are naive and put up with crap older women won't. What I don't understand is that a youngen can't be as good in bed as someone with more experience. Who cares if they make you feel good about yourself if they suck in bed? It's not like your gonna marry them. So why not try to find someone that is attractive and experienced? Why, probably goes back to my original answer, because someone older is gonna see through your b.s. There is probably also the fact that someone older is probably gonna want more than a roll in the sheets. Just cause I'm 30 and have no desire to be married or be in a really serious relationship doesn't mean all women are that way. Of course I know I am different from most women in numerous ways, which is part of the reason I get so frustrated. A person should be judged individually, not lumped into a group becausee of age.
Of course I am such a hypocrite, because from the age of 19 to the age of about 25 I always dated someone that was at least 20 years older than myself. I did it because I didn't wanna be in a committed relationship and I knew I was in no danger of guy falling in love with me and wanting to get married if he was 20 years my elder. I also did it because I wanted to learn as much about sex as possible. And sub-consciously I probably did it because I have daddy issues. So I have a lot of nerve being annoyed with guys now when I did the same thing. My only reasoning is I was not a normal youngen, I was wise beyond my years. O.k., yes I know that is such b.s., sorry it goes with being a carsales person. I guess I'm just bitter because I don't fall into the yougen category and am now at the point where I can only date so much older. I won't date younger because I refuse to train and I just can't deal with the immaturity.
Unfortunately, I have only been able to hook up with youngens since I moved to Minnesota. The only decent lay I have had in Minnesota is my ex-boyfriend, but he had way too much baggage and he was only 27. Trying to find a guy that is over 30 and still single is extremely difficult out here. Well, hopefully once I'm at my body and weight goals, I will have better luck finding a hot older guy to hook up with.
So I went on a little tangent, but I feel better now.
Have a great night!
Sunday, October 10, 2010
Ugh - Technology and my M.I.A. belongings
As far as blogging is concerned. The stars have not aligned for me lately. This is mainly because of two things - I'm blond and technology is not cooperating. The day of my last post I was in St. Paul earlier that morning. St. Paul isn't that far from me but traffic that time is horrid so I decided to stay with a friend that lives close by the night before. Well I forgot my phone charger at her house. Because of that everything has gotten kinda screwy. She returned the wrong charger to me. It doesn't work and neither does my car charger. The two combined only keep my cell running but doesn't charge. I went to the Verizon store and they gave me a new battery, but to no avail. It's not holding the charge. Now I'm gonna have to go back to the Verizon store to get a new charger. This would be a big deal except the closest store is 40 miles away. Things like this make me miss L.A. I had all these blogging tools set up on my phone so I could post on the go. Hopefully I will get to use those soon.
I have had the worse habit of leaving my belongings all over Minnesota. This is really sad especially since I didn't have much to begin with when I came here. I came to here with one suitcase and that was in winter time so heavy items. I had no summer clothes what so ever. I have made due, but it doesn't help when I leave things everywhere. I think the only item I will never see again is a skirt that I was wearing on St. Patty's day, but that is another story for another day. Oh and all the stuff at my ex-boyfriends house. Also items I will probably never see again, but not 100% on that yet. We are trying to be friends, but it's not working very well since every time I talk to him I want to rip his eye balls out of the sockets. Bitter much? Yes, but I have my reasons. But alas also a story for another time.
Well that's it for now. This past week was really crazy and I'll have to play catch up on the varies activities that transpired. Hopefully, I will get to do that over the next couple days.
Hope you all had a great weekend.
I have had the worse habit of leaving my belongings all over Minnesota. This is really sad especially since I didn't have much to begin with when I came here. I came to here with one suitcase and that was in winter time so heavy items. I had no summer clothes what so ever. I have made due, but it doesn't help when I leave things everywhere. I think the only item I will never see again is a skirt that I was wearing on St. Patty's day, but that is another story for another day. Oh and all the stuff at my ex-boyfriends house. Also items I will probably never see again, but not 100% on that yet. We are trying to be friends, but it's not working very well since every time I talk to him I want to rip his eye balls out of the sockets. Bitter much? Yes, but I have my reasons. But alas also a story for another time.
Well that's it for now. This past week was really crazy and I'll have to play catch up on the varies activities that transpired. Hopefully, I will get to do that over the next couple days.
Hope you all had a great weekend.
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Day 1
I was so excited for so many funny and unusual things to happen today so I had many topics to discuss on my first blog. Well unfortunately today was kinda dull. Well dull as far as humorous stories are concerned. It was actually an extremely busy day. In order to explain all the busy-ness (I know not a word or at the very least spelled wrong - I can hear my mother now "$5000 a year to put you through private school and you put busy-ness in your blog!") though I would have to go into way too much back story which I am too tired to do tonight.
I will share one funny little tidbit before I go into what you can expect from my blog on a daily basis. I was walking in down town St. Paul, MN. this morning and there was a fairly large size trucking backing up to a building. The truck was backing into a driveway that crossed the sidewalk. Two other ladies and myself had stopped to wait for the truck to finish moving. There was also a police car there to stop oncoming traffic. The truck had the back up beeping noise going and then I heard one of the ladies next to me say "hey lady -STOP!!!!" There was a young girl (early 20's) with her face buried in her cell phone and she was walking behind the truck (which was still backing up). The truck was about 2 feet away from the building. Had the lady next to me not said something the girl would have been hit by the truck. The look on the girls face was hilarious. She was so immersed in her phone that she had no clue there was a truck in the middle of the sidewalk let alone that it was about to back into her. Had the truck already been stopped she probably would have walked right into it! The look on the police officer's face was also priceless. I bet he was wishing he could write tickets for stupidity at that moment. The two women and I all shook our heads and laughed and then continued on our way when the truck had stopped. The whole thing was too funny! It's bad enough that people get into accidents because of cell phone use while driving but to have an accident happen while your walking!!!! Seriously - pull you head out of your ass!
So you may be wondering what motivated me to start doing a blog. Well I tried to explain it a little in my blog description but I'm a little to long winded for a 500 character maxium restriction. I am constantly making my friends and family laugh at my random mishaps and stories about things that happen to me. Don't get me wrong my life isn't a complete disaster, but I definitely have my moments.
Here is a little back story on me then I'm going to call it a night. I am 30 years old. I just moved to Minnesota at the end of January of this year. I had been living near Los Angeles, Ca. since I was 3. I moved here to get away from numerous things in L.A. All of these things I will get into in future blogs. I am divorced. I was married for 1 year and was with with my ex-husband for a total of 5 years. The failed marriage, my family life and some missteps professionally became a little to much for me to handle. I needed a fresh start. I decided to move here. I used to visit Minnesota every summer up to the age of about 16 because my family lives here. I currently live with my aunt on a farm that is about 30 miles north of the twins cities. It is pretty rural and you will hear me refer to it as "god's country." I am lucky to have many friends and family out here who have tried to make the adjustment as easy as possible for me. Unfortunately, as you will find out I have a tendency to make things difficult for myself. I have worked in the car business as a salesperson for over 10 years. My experience in the car business has been very interesting and the stories I could tell could probably fill up numerous novels. It's very much an all boys club and I have somehow managed to fit right in. This is probably because I tend to think like a guy. Don't worry we will go into that a lot more! I have worked at two dealers so far since I moved here and have struggled. I am having a hard time communicating to the people out here. I am currently unemployed. Ugh!!! I have a few irons in the fire and will go overs those in detail in future blogs. I tend to take things pretty well and most of the things that would probably slow most people down for a few weeks, I tend to get over in a day. This has not always been the case though. The past 3 years have been insanely challenging and it has taken everything in my power to keep going. Sorry, I know all of that was boring but it was a necessary evil for you to understand topics that may come up.
Many of the things I do and the way I choose to live my life (especially romantically) tends to confound many people. I definitely do not think like the normal female. In fact both men and women find it amusing the way I go about things. I believe in being straight forward and always being honest - sometimes a little too honest. This pertains to myself more than others though. I am very open minded and respect how anyone chooses to live their life. I just tend to be no holds bar when it comes to telling people about myself or what's on my mind. So be forewarned! Many things I say will probably fall under the category of T.M.I. I will also warn you that I am a very sexual person and sex will often be a topic I will discuss. Oh and yes I am heterosexual (at least about 90% of the time.) I figure I better warn you now so you are not caught of guard by the things that will appear in my blog.
Well I think that was a decent summary of me, at least for day 1. You will find out more than you would probably ever want to know about a person as the days progress. Oh and I promise tomorrow should be fairly entertaining. On my list of things to do tomorrow is buy a wheel barrel, muck stall, drag the arena and finally try my exercise ball. This list may not seem comical, but it's me and at least one of those things is going to be a riot. Most likely the exercise ball. I've never been on one with out a trainer to catch me before I rolled off of it, so it should be fun.
I hope everyone was a wonderful evening!
P.S. This blog is probably riddled with spelling and grammatical errors. I will appoligize now for this blog and any future blogs that are this way. The fact of the matter is I really don't care. I am not trying to win any literary awards. I just want to be somewhat entertaining and be able to express myself. Please do not point out any errors. However, if I state something as a fact and I am wrong please feel free to tell me, but no nit-picking of my writting please. Thank you :* (that is a kissy face for you that don't know)
I will share one funny little tidbit before I go into what you can expect from my blog on a daily basis. I was walking in down town St. Paul, MN. this morning and there was a fairly large size trucking backing up to a building. The truck was backing into a driveway that crossed the sidewalk. Two other ladies and myself had stopped to wait for the truck to finish moving. There was also a police car there to stop oncoming traffic. The truck had the back up beeping noise going and then I heard one of the ladies next to me say "hey lady -STOP!!!!" There was a young girl (early 20's) with her face buried in her cell phone and she was walking behind the truck (which was still backing up). The truck was about 2 feet away from the building. Had the lady next to me not said something the girl would have been hit by the truck. The look on the girls face was hilarious. She was so immersed in her phone that she had no clue there was a truck in the middle of the sidewalk let alone that it was about to back into her. Had the truck already been stopped she probably would have walked right into it! The look on the police officer's face was also priceless. I bet he was wishing he could write tickets for stupidity at that moment. The two women and I all shook our heads and laughed and then continued on our way when the truck had stopped. The whole thing was too funny! It's bad enough that people get into accidents because of cell phone use while driving but to have an accident happen while your walking!!!! Seriously - pull you head out of your ass!
So you may be wondering what motivated me to start doing a blog. Well I tried to explain it a little in my blog description but I'm a little to long winded for a 500 character maxium restriction. I am constantly making my friends and family laugh at my random mishaps and stories about things that happen to me. Don't get me wrong my life isn't a complete disaster, but I definitely have my moments.
Here is a little back story on me then I'm going to call it a night. I am 30 years old. I just moved to Minnesota at the end of January of this year. I had been living near Los Angeles, Ca. since I was 3. I moved here to get away from numerous things in L.A. All of these things I will get into in future blogs. I am divorced. I was married for 1 year and was with with my ex-husband for a total of 5 years. The failed marriage, my family life and some missteps professionally became a little to much for me to handle. I needed a fresh start. I decided to move here. I used to visit Minnesota every summer up to the age of about 16 because my family lives here. I currently live with my aunt on a farm that is about 30 miles north of the twins cities. It is pretty rural and you will hear me refer to it as "god's country." I am lucky to have many friends and family out here who have tried to make the adjustment as easy as possible for me. Unfortunately, as you will find out I have a tendency to make things difficult for myself. I have worked in the car business as a salesperson for over 10 years. My experience in the car business has been very interesting and the stories I could tell could probably fill up numerous novels. It's very much an all boys club and I have somehow managed to fit right in. This is probably because I tend to think like a guy. Don't worry we will go into that a lot more! I have worked at two dealers so far since I moved here and have struggled. I am having a hard time communicating to the people out here. I am currently unemployed. Ugh!!! I have a few irons in the fire and will go overs those in detail in future blogs. I tend to take things pretty well and most of the things that would probably slow most people down for a few weeks, I tend to get over in a day. This has not always been the case though. The past 3 years have been insanely challenging and it has taken everything in my power to keep going. Sorry, I know all of that was boring but it was a necessary evil for you to understand topics that may come up.
Many of the things I do and the way I choose to live my life (especially romantically) tends to confound many people. I definitely do not think like the normal female. In fact both men and women find it amusing the way I go about things. I believe in being straight forward and always being honest - sometimes a little too honest. This pertains to myself more than others though. I am very open minded and respect how anyone chooses to live their life. I just tend to be no holds bar when it comes to telling people about myself or what's on my mind. So be forewarned! Many things I say will probably fall under the category of T.M.I. I will also warn you that I am a very sexual person and sex will often be a topic I will discuss. Oh and yes I am heterosexual (at least about 90% of the time.) I figure I better warn you now so you are not caught of guard by the things that will appear in my blog.
Well I think that was a decent summary of me, at least for day 1. You will find out more than you would probably ever want to know about a person as the days progress. Oh and I promise tomorrow should be fairly entertaining. On my list of things to do tomorrow is buy a wheel barrel, muck stall, drag the arena and finally try my exercise ball. This list may not seem comical, but it's me and at least one of those things is going to be a riot. Most likely the exercise ball. I've never been on one with out a trainer to catch me before I rolled off of it, so it should be fun.
I hope everyone was a wonderful evening!
P.S. This blog is probably riddled with spelling and grammatical errors. I will appoligize now for this blog and any future blogs that are this way. The fact of the matter is I really don't care. I am not trying to win any literary awards. I just want to be somewhat entertaining and be able to express myself. Please do not point out any errors. However, if I state something as a fact and I am wrong please feel free to tell me, but no nit-picking of my writting please. Thank you :* (that is a kissy face for you that don't know)
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