Friday, August 26, 2011
Monday, January 31, 2011
One door closes, another opens
I don't even know where to begin - so much has happened in the past few days. After finishing my blog on Friday, I decided to tell the guy that I had mentioned in that blog to read it. I sent him an email to read it and if he could handle that kinda of arrangement - great, if not - no hard feelings. So off that email went. I kinda knew what the answer would be and already had other irons in the fire in case it was no.
The other iron in the fire was another guy I met online. I had been emailing him back and forth for about a week. He text me Friday and asked me if I wanted to go to a gopher (college) hockey game. I said sure. What did I have to loose? Plus it sounded like fun. Now granted I felt a little slutty about the fact I just sent an email off to one guy asking him if I could have his penis on a regular basis and then am going on a first date with another guy. You only live once, right?
I guess I should nick name these guys so you don't get confused, heck I'm confused. Anyways, the guy I sent an email to will be booty call guy and the guy I went to gopher game with will be army guy since he just got out of the army.
Now you need a breakdown of my weekend:
Friday:
6:00 pm - meet army guy - go to hockey game
9:00 pm - go to local bar with army guy and see live band (really having a great time)
10:00 pm - get email from booty call guy that basically says thanks but no thanks (saw that one coming) (and was kind of regretting having even sent the email in the first place)
Saturday:
2:00 am - leave bar (yes with army guy) takes me to car
2:00 to 6:00 am- talk in his car (yes just talk)
6:00 am - we are hungry - decide to go to Perkins and get breakfast
7:00 am - get back to car (again)
7:30 am - finally leave for home
8:30 am - crawl into bed
12:00 pm - get text from army guy - do I wanna hang out later that day?
1:00 - 3:30 pm - run around house cleaning like a lunatic and get ready
4:00 pm - army guy picks me up and we go to movie
4:40 -7:00 pm - watch the movie No Strings Attatched
7:00 pm - go and pick up a pizza
7:30 pm - get back home
8:00 pm - eat and then go to my room. We talk and messed around until.....
Sunday:
3:30 am - Army guy and I finally go to sleep - and no sex has happened
6:30 am - We wake up - I do chores - go back to my room and we talk and mess around more - still no sex
3:00 pm - We decide we need to do something - he is thinking about getting a house nearby, so we get ready to go house shopping
4:00 pm - shower with army guy - still no sex
5:00 pm - leave house and decide to get dinner first
5:30 pm - dinner
6:30 - 7:00 pm look at 2 houses
8:00 - get back home - go to room and more talking - no sex
Monday:
1:30 am - he leaves
10:00 am - I wake up feeling like I just did a 72 hour bender in Las Vegas
See what I mean? My brain hurts. I need to back track a little in give you a little in between the lines details. I was not suprised at all that booty call guy shot me down. I could kinda tell after the last time we slept together that it would be the last time we slept together. I can't tell you exactly why just that certain guys have a hard time dealing with me. Like I mentioned above, I was kind of regretting sending it anyways, even before I hit it off with army guy. It was one of those moments when you hit the send button and then immediately regret it. I wasn't sure I could deal with his personality on a regular basis even if it was just for sex and turns out the feeling was mutual. Since I got shut down though I decided to be a little less direct with Army guy. Plus Army guy is not really the kind of guy that the speech would work with. The other thing is that I was really digging army guy and didn't want to screw it up. I had an absolute blast with him at the hockey game and bar. I beat him twice in pool and he handled it really well, plus he didn't get all jealous when guy friends would come up and say hi. I did fill him in on my normal M.O. when it comes to dating - only because he asked. This was done after the bar. He accepted this info rather well and didn't seem to judge me because of it. He seemed open to it, but the problem was that I was liking him. Great!!!!
Don't get me wrong. I appreciate the universe not giving me any lag time in between penis'. What I wasn't expecting was that one of the penis' would be a really great guy who actually has his shit together. Part of the reason I pick asshole guys is so I won't get attached. So in the parking lot I tell army guy that I like him and want to see how things go. This didn't mean I intended on waiting all that long to sleep with him, I just wasn't going to do it on the first date. During the course of the weekend I thought it was going to happen a few times and it kind of did, but I'll get into that in a bit.
Obviously a lot of talking was done. One thing that he liked about me was that I have a good understanding of the military. My understanding comes from the fact that my mom was a cop so I get the discipline and sacrifice aspect of it. There is also the fact that I was a military history major, so I get the tactical aspect of it. Then of course there is the fact that I was in a "FTF" relationship with a marine for 3 years and then married to someone that was in the air force. All of this I told him. Now I've got army guy. Once we sleep together that will be 3 of the 4 branches down. Then all I need is Navy. I also told him that and he laughed. That's why I like him, I can totally be my crazy self and he actually seems to like it.
Now for the sex part. He told me that he likes to wait to have sex with someone until he knows a lot about them. By Sunday I felt he knew enough about me. I mean we talked for like 20 hours by that point. So we start having sex - he actually stopped me half way through. I was bummed I was really enjoying myself and had already got off like 5 times and we had only been going at it for 15 minutes. Also I hate when the guy doesn't get off. Anyways, he said he had to stop because he didn't want to rush in to sex and wanted to get to know me better. Really? You couldn't have thought of that 15 minutes ago? I told him I would respect him in the morning. He laughed. He also said I deserved more than some guy that would rush to get into my pants in the first 72 hours. How am I suppose to argue with that one? I'm thinking to myself "great - all I wanted was penis on regular basis and now I'm laying next to someone that has "marriage potential" written all over him. How do I get myself into these situations?" I know most girls would be falling all over themselves to be with this guy and me I'm getting all weirded out with the idea of being with someone for more than just sex. There were some really domestic moments this weekend like brushing our teeth together and of course house shopping that just made me cringe.
I swear who ever or whatever made me is playing a sick joke. It's like when they made me they said o.k. let take a man (with a very high sex drive) and put him into a female body and see what happens. I'm sure someone up there is getting a good laugh at me. I am so messed up in the head.
So I guess I'm going to have to pretend to be normal and just see how this one plays out.
Oh one funny tidbit. So today I'm in my group therapy session going over what happen this weekend. Ok - I know your wondering why I'm in a group therapy session but that is a whole story in itself and will have to wait for a future blog. Anyways, I'm discussing what happened this weekend with the group and how I'm a little perplexed with the situation because I prefer no strings attached relationships. One of the guys in group texts me when the meeting was over (we all have each others phone numbers.) He sent me a picture of his cock with a message of "no strings ever." I replied back thanks but no thanks. Does this kind of stuff happen to everyone or is it just me?
Well that about covers it. We will see what happens. I am now going to go sleep for a year!
Have a great night everyone!!!!
The other iron in the fire was another guy I met online. I had been emailing him back and forth for about a week. He text me Friday and asked me if I wanted to go to a gopher (college) hockey game. I said sure. What did I have to loose? Plus it sounded like fun. Now granted I felt a little slutty about the fact I just sent an email off to one guy asking him if I could have his penis on a regular basis and then am going on a first date with another guy. You only live once, right?
I guess I should nick name these guys so you don't get confused, heck I'm confused. Anyways, the guy I sent an email to will be booty call guy and the guy I went to gopher game with will be army guy since he just got out of the army.
Now you need a breakdown of my weekend:
Friday:
6:00 pm - meet army guy - go to hockey game
9:00 pm - go to local bar with army guy and see live band (really having a great time)
10:00 pm - get email from booty call guy that basically says thanks but no thanks (saw that one coming) (and was kind of regretting having even sent the email in the first place)
Saturday:
2:00 am - leave bar (yes with army guy) takes me to car
2:00 to 6:00 am- talk in his car (yes just talk)
6:00 am - we are hungry - decide to go to Perkins and get breakfast
7:00 am - get back to car (again)
7:30 am - finally leave for home
8:30 am - crawl into bed
12:00 pm - get text from army guy - do I wanna hang out later that day?
1:00 - 3:30 pm - run around house cleaning like a lunatic and get ready
4:00 pm - army guy picks me up and we go to movie
4:40 -7:00 pm - watch the movie No Strings Attatched
7:00 pm - go and pick up a pizza
7:30 pm - get back home
8:00 pm - eat and then go to my room. We talk and messed around until.....
Sunday:
3:30 am - Army guy and I finally go to sleep - and no sex has happened
6:30 am - We wake up - I do chores - go back to my room and we talk and mess around more - still no sex
3:00 pm - We decide we need to do something - he is thinking about getting a house nearby, so we get ready to go house shopping
4:00 pm - shower with army guy - still no sex
5:00 pm - leave house and decide to get dinner first
5:30 pm - dinner
6:30 - 7:00 pm look at 2 houses
8:00 - get back home - go to room and more talking - no sex
Monday:
1:30 am - he leaves
10:00 am - I wake up feeling like I just did a 72 hour bender in Las Vegas
See what I mean? My brain hurts. I need to back track a little in give you a little in between the lines details. I was not suprised at all that booty call guy shot me down. I could kinda tell after the last time we slept together that it would be the last time we slept together. I can't tell you exactly why just that certain guys have a hard time dealing with me. Like I mentioned above, I was kind of regretting sending it anyways, even before I hit it off with army guy. It was one of those moments when you hit the send button and then immediately regret it. I wasn't sure I could deal with his personality on a regular basis even if it was just for sex and turns out the feeling was mutual. Since I got shut down though I decided to be a little less direct with Army guy. Plus Army guy is not really the kind of guy that the speech would work with. The other thing is that I was really digging army guy and didn't want to screw it up. I had an absolute blast with him at the hockey game and bar. I beat him twice in pool and he handled it really well, plus he didn't get all jealous when guy friends would come up and say hi. I did fill him in on my normal M.O. when it comes to dating - only because he asked. This was done after the bar. He accepted this info rather well and didn't seem to judge me because of it. He seemed open to it, but the problem was that I was liking him. Great!!!!
Don't get me wrong. I appreciate the universe not giving me any lag time in between penis'. What I wasn't expecting was that one of the penis' would be a really great guy who actually has his shit together. Part of the reason I pick asshole guys is so I won't get attached. So in the parking lot I tell army guy that I like him and want to see how things go. This didn't mean I intended on waiting all that long to sleep with him, I just wasn't going to do it on the first date. During the course of the weekend I thought it was going to happen a few times and it kind of did, but I'll get into that in a bit.
Obviously a lot of talking was done. One thing that he liked about me was that I have a good understanding of the military. My understanding comes from the fact that my mom was a cop so I get the discipline and sacrifice aspect of it. There is also the fact that I was a military history major, so I get the tactical aspect of it. Then of course there is the fact that I was in a "FTF" relationship with a marine for 3 years and then married to someone that was in the air force. All of this I told him. Now I've got army guy. Once we sleep together that will be 3 of the 4 branches down. Then all I need is Navy. I also told him that and he laughed. That's why I like him, I can totally be my crazy self and he actually seems to like it.
Now for the sex part. He told me that he likes to wait to have sex with someone until he knows a lot about them. By Sunday I felt he knew enough about me. I mean we talked for like 20 hours by that point. So we start having sex - he actually stopped me half way through. I was bummed I was really enjoying myself and had already got off like 5 times and we had only been going at it for 15 minutes. Also I hate when the guy doesn't get off. Anyways, he said he had to stop because he didn't want to rush in to sex and wanted to get to know me better. Really? You couldn't have thought of that 15 minutes ago? I told him I would respect him in the morning. He laughed. He also said I deserved more than some guy that would rush to get into my pants in the first 72 hours. How am I suppose to argue with that one? I'm thinking to myself "great - all I wanted was penis on regular basis and now I'm laying next to someone that has "marriage potential" written all over him. How do I get myself into these situations?" I know most girls would be falling all over themselves to be with this guy and me I'm getting all weirded out with the idea of being with someone for more than just sex. There were some really domestic moments this weekend like brushing our teeth together and of course house shopping that just made me cringe.
I swear who ever or whatever made me is playing a sick joke. It's like when they made me they said o.k. let take a man (with a very high sex drive) and put him into a female body and see what happens. I'm sure someone up there is getting a good laugh at me. I am so messed up in the head.
So I guess I'm going to have to pretend to be normal and just see how this one plays out.
Oh one funny tidbit. So today I'm in my group therapy session going over what happen this weekend. Ok - I know your wondering why I'm in a group therapy session but that is a whole story in itself and will have to wait for a future blog. Anyways, I'm discussing what happened this weekend with the group and how I'm a little perplexed with the situation because I prefer no strings attached relationships. One of the guys in group texts me when the meeting was over (we all have each others phone numbers.) He sent me a picture of his cock with a message of "no strings ever." I replied back thanks but no thanks. Does this kind of stuff happen to everyone or is it just me?
Well that about covers it. We will see what happens. I am now going to go sleep for a year!
Have a great night everyone!!!!
Friday, January 28, 2011
Catch up time!!!
Wow!!! I can't believe how long it has been since I have blogged! I just read through all the previous ones and sadly not a lot has changed. Well at least not in the sex department.
Well, let's get you up to date. L.A. and Green Bay were awesome! I had some beer and brats, then some sun and sex. I was a happy girl. Geez that was way back in November. Ok, so I get back home. Hunter guy had disappeared of the face of the earth. I was getting totally blown off!!!! Really? Short - fat guy blows me off??? I found out fairly recently that he had gotten back together with his phyco girlfriend, but we will get into that more later. So what do I do? I get back together with my ex-boyfriend. I'm not going to go into that too much, because the drama that unfolded was ridiculous. Looking back it was because of the regular lay aspect that I got back with him. I'm sorry but he had a small penis and was a drama queen. I will give him credit - he was good in bed, but not worth the headache! So that ended in mid - December. And wouldn't you know it - a week later hunter guy re-appears! Really? Oh well - so after giving him shit for blowing me off, we got together. It was not as great as I remembered, and I could tell he was going to disappear again, which he did. He said he would call me in a couple days, that was over a month ago. I know I have said this before but it's really annoying getting blown off by a short - fat guy. At least when you get blown off by a hot guy, you know it's because of the fact they are getting pink thrown at them in every direction. When you get blown off by a guy who has limited options, you start to take it personally. The other thing that just annoys me about guys in general is how they are so afraid of being direct. I understand if you have found something else, believe me - yours is not the only penis on the planet.
So, guess what? Mandy gets to start all over again! I will get into that in a bit.
Here is a little non - sex info. So, I finally hit my weight loss goal and have kept the weight off! I am now 135 and a size 4. All I need to do now is tone my tummy and butt a little and I will be solid! Don't get me wrong, I look great right now. I know, I know, I'm a conceited bitch. I'm just really happy with the results so far, it was a lot of hard work. Oh and I'm a brunette now! For some reason I got a bug up my ass and wanted a change. I put it to a vote on facebook and my friends overwhelming voted for brunette, so that's what I did. I like it. It's sucks not having the blonde excuse when I do something really stupid, but that's ok. I also had to adjust my game a little. Blondes are a little more approachable I think, probably because of the mis-conception that they are not as intelligent. So even when I have my "don't fuck with me face on," I would still get hit on. Not the case as a brunette, I have to smile more. I also noticed with my friends that as a brunette, if I'm not smiling, I'm constantly being asked - what's wrong? So I have to learn to be a little more friendly looking. Not a big deal.
Another new change is that I have been applying a new way of thinking. Basically the theory that is presented in the book/movie The Secret. I have been in a pretty dark place for the last few years and it was getting old. I needed to change my way of thinking. For those of you that don't know, The Secret is about the law of attraction. In simplest terms if you are positive - good things will happen and if your negative, bad things will happen. This is of course is just 1% of what goes into it, but if your really interested, you can get the book yourself. So I started applying this to my life in late December and it has made an enormous difference! Part of the thought process is envisioning what you want out of life and making it happen. A lot of my goals are long term, but I am noticing things happening.
Side note. I have decided what I want to do with my life. I want to become a marriage and family therapist and eventually a sex therapist. I know this is probably a fact that doesn't surprise too many people. You may not know that when my sexless marriage was failing, I went to a sex therapist. I actually didn't know he specialized in sexual issues at the time, I thought he was just a marriage counselor. Well obviously my marriage still failed, but he helped me realize some very important things. The topic of sex has always interested me and at one time I considered teaching the history of sexuality and sexology. I recently decided that my time would be better spent trying to help couples that have been in similar circumstances to mine than teaching a bunch of horny college students. So I am currently in the process of figuring out how to make this goal happen. It will mean a few more years of school, but I know it will be a gratifying career.
So back to the thought process thing. A part of it is envisioning what you want. I just went over my long term goals, but what is my short term goal you ask? I bet you know the answer. Yes your right - getting penis on a regular basis. So how do you go about achieving your short term goal? You tell the universe what you want, you envision what it will be like when you get it and then you do steps to make it happen. So I started with telling the universe what I wanted. Dear universe, please send me a hot guy with a big penis who is not an emotional wreck and also not a complete asshole. If you have read my previous blogs you will understand the asshole thing. Anyways, I asked for this every morning and night. Well then I needed to envision it and believe me I did - especially during "me time." Then there are the steps. I had been on zoosk.com forever but because your limited in your communication unless you want to pay - it wasn't working very well. So I researched completely free sites. I went on a couple. Well within minutes of doing my profile I got hit up like crazy. So I found a penis fairly recently. He has a big penis, is hot, and not a complete asshole. I still don't have a great read on him yet, but we will see. I also haven't been able to give him the "speech" yet. You know how it goes. I don't want a relationship. I just want to get laid once a week (at the least.) I need to know when the next time we are going to hook up is going to be because otherwise I turn into a crabby horny bitch. Do not flake or blow me off! Rescheduling is o.k. I don't really need to talk to you in the meantime if the next date is already set. If you are "handling business," I will not sleep or even look for anyone else. If you blow me off - after 2 weeks I will start looking elsewhere or "trolling" as I call it. Then we are done. Hopefully he will understand and be agreeable. I'm hoping for sex on a regular basis without the drama. I'm not sure why, but this always seems like a lot to ask.
The universe doesn't really get moderation. A couple guys have come out of the wood work this week but since they are in l.a. it doesn't really matter. Although with one of the guys it's kind of a funny situation. I won't go into extreme detail. I never thought he was attracted to me. I would have fucked him in a heartbeat when I first met him and he knew it but he never seemed to feel the same way. Out of the blue, he emails me, telling me he wants to fuck me. It was crazy. Well good to know you can get the one the got away even if it won't be til way ahead in the future.
That should catch you guys up for now. I actually have more to say since it has been so long but my fingers are getting tired.
Well, let's get you up to date. L.A. and Green Bay were awesome! I had some beer and brats, then some sun and sex. I was a happy girl. Geez that was way back in November. Ok, so I get back home. Hunter guy had disappeared of the face of the earth. I was getting totally blown off!!!! Really? Short - fat guy blows me off??? I found out fairly recently that he had gotten back together with his phyco girlfriend, but we will get into that more later. So what do I do? I get back together with my ex-boyfriend. I'm not going to go into that too much, because the drama that unfolded was ridiculous. Looking back it was because of the regular lay aspect that I got back with him. I'm sorry but he had a small penis and was a drama queen. I will give him credit - he was good in bed, but not worth the headache! So that ended in mid - December. And wouldn't you know it - a week later hunter guy re-appears! Really? Oh well - so after giving him shit for blowing me off, we got together. It was not as great as I remembered, and I could tell he was going to disappear again, which he did. He said he would call me in a couple days, that was over a month ago. I know I have said this before but it's really annoying getting blown off by a short - fat guy. At least when you get blown off by a hot guy, you know it's because of the fact they are getting pink thrown at them in every direction. When you get blown off by a guy who has limited options, you start to take it personally. The other thing that just annoys me about guys in general is how they are so afraid of being direct. I understand if you have found something else, believe me - yours is not the only penis on the planet.
So, guess what? Mandy gets to start all over again! I will get into that in a bit.
Here is a little non - sex info. So, I finally hit my weight loss goal and have kept the weight off! I am now 135 and a size 4. All I need to do now is tone my tummy and butt a little and I will be solid! Don't get me wrong, I look great right now. I know, I know, I'm a conceited bitch. I'm just really happy with the results so far, it was a lot of hard work. Oh and I'm a brunette now! For some reason I got a bug up my ass and wanted a change. I put it to a vote on facebook and my friends overwhelming voted for brunette, so that's what I did. I like it. It's sucks not having the blonde excuse when I do something really stupid, but that's ok. I also had to adjust my game a little. Blondes are a little more approachable I think, probably because of the mis-conception that they are not as intelligent. So even when I have my "don't fuck with me face on," I would still get hit on. Not the case as a brunette, I have to smile more. I also noticed with my friends that as a brunette, if I'm not smiling, I'm constantly being asked - what's wrong? So I have to learn to be a little more friendly looking. Not a big deal.
Another new change is that I have been applying a new way of thinking. Basically the theory that is presented in the book/movie The Secret. I have been in a pretty dark place for the last few years and it was getting old. I needed to change my way of thinking. For those of you that don't know, The Secret is about the law of attraction. In simplest terms if you are positive - good things will happen and if your negative, bad things will happen. This is of course is just 1% of what goes into it, but if your really interested, you can get the book yourself. So I started applying this to my life in late December and it has made an enormous difference! Part of the thought process is envisioning what you want out of life and making it happen. A lot of my goals are long term, but I am noticing things happening.
Side note. I have decided what I want to do with my life. I want to become a marriage and family therapist and eventually a sex therapist. I know this is probably a fact that doesn't surprise too many people. You may not know that when my sexless marriage was failing, I went to a sex therapist. I actually didn't know he specialized in sexual issues at the time, I thought he was just a marriage counselor. Well obviously my marriage still failed, but he helped me realize some very important things. The topic of sex has always interested me and at one time I considered teaching the history of sexuality and sexology. I recently decided that my time would be better spent trying to help couples that have been in similar circumstances to mine than teaching a bunch of horny college students. So I am currently in the process of figuring out how to make this goal happen. It will mean a few more years of school, but I know it will be a gratifying career.
So back to the thought process thing. A part of it is envisioning what you want. I just went over my long term goals, but what is my short term goal you ask? I bet you know the answer. Yes your right - getting penis on a regular basis. So how do you go about achieving your short term goal? You tell the universe what you want, you envision what it will be like when you get it and then you do steps to make it happen. So I started with telling the universe what I wanted. Dear universe, please send me a hot guy with a big penis who is not an emotional wreck and also not a complete asshole. If you have read my previous blogs you will understand the asshole thing. Anyways, I asked for this every morning and night. Well then I needed to envision it and believe me I did - especially during "me time." Then there are the steps. I had been on zoosk.com forever but because your limited in your communication unless you want to pay - it wasn't working very well. So I researched completely free sites. I went on a couple. Well within minutes of doing my profile I got hit up like crazy. So I found a penis fairly recently. He has a big penis, is hot, and not a complete asshole. I still don't have a great read on him yet, but we will see. I also haven't been able to give him the "speech" yet. You know how it goes. I don't want a relationship. I just want to get laid once a week (at the least.) I need to know when the next time we are going to hook up is going to be because otherwise I turn into a crabby horny bitch. Do not flake or blow me off! Rescheduling is o.k. I don't really need to talk to you in the meantime if the next date is already set. If you are "handling business," I will not sleep or even look for anyone else. If you blow me off - after 2 weeks I will start looking elsewhere or "trolling" as I call it. Then we are done. Hopefully he will understand and be agreeable. I'm hoping for sex on a regular basis without the drama. I'm not sure why, but this always seems like a lot to ask.
The universe doesn't really get moderation. A couple guys have come out of the wood work this week but since they are in l.a. it doesn't really matter. Although with one of the guys it's kind of a funny situation. I won't go into extreme detail. I never thought he was attracted to me. I would have fucked him in a heartbeat when I first met him and he knew it but he never seemed to feel the same way. Out of the blue, he emails me, telling me he wants to fuck me. It was crazy. Well good to know you can get the one the got away even if it won't be til way ahead in the future.
That should catch you guys up for now. I actually have more to say since it has been so long but my fingers are getting tired.
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Monday Night - My all nighter!!!
I'm is still trying to recover from Monday and it's Wednesday. I have also been working my ass off trying to get our horse arena cleared of brush, so that is definitely added to my soreness and tiredness.
Ever since I was 18. I have been attracted to guys in their 40's. Mainly because of the directness I think comes with age. There is less game playing when you get older. The other thing I have always been attracted to is a guy who is cocky. I refer to this as being an asshole, but it is really about someone who has confidence. They know they have something that your gonna like and keep coming back for. I also have tended to be with guys that are in the car business. Obviously since I've been in the car business for 10 years this makes sense. You tend to gravitate toward people your around all the time and people you have things in common with. It is also because guys that are in the car business have a cockiness about them. You have to be that way to sell cars. I'm that way too.
Well ten years later and I'm still attracted to cocky guys in their 40's. I had gotten away from this over the past year. I had mainly been with younger guys since I moved to mn. and I saw this as part of my problem. Recently I had been communicating with a guy I sold cars with out here. He is in 40's and definitely has a cockiness about him. When we worked together I thought he couldn't stand me. Probably part of the reason I'm sorta attracted to him. There is also the fact is a former marine. I have a soft spot for military - kinda plays into the cocky/asshole thing I like. Anyways, the only issue was he isn't my traditional type in looks department. Basically short and a little chubby. Not normally what I go for. Except at this point I was starting not to care. I had heard him talk about his sex life before and had a feeling he was a pretty good lay. So I might have to lower my standards to be able to have a bunch of orgasms - I think I can live with this fact.
So Monday we planned to get together for the first time when he got done with work. Funny side note - he warned me that he was "not a small guy." I had to laugh, I just responded that size is relative and I'm sure I would be fine. He text me he was gonna be late. I decided to go to the local bar and watch Monday night football while I waited. O.k. here is where it gets interesting. So I'm at this bar for about 3 hours. There aren't that many people in there, but I did notice one cute guy. Long story short, bar guy doesn't get the balls up to talk to me until I'm about to leave. Now I have a dilemma, I have a sure thing waiting for me but bar guy is really cute. I text my friend asking her what to do. She actually gave me great advice - she said go do your sure thing, but make sure you get bar guy's number. If you try to flirt with bar guy tonight - your gonna come on too strong cause your horny and your gonna scare him away. She was right I was coming on way too strong, so I gave him my number and left.
Oh, most guys I make reference to will have nick-names. So sure thing guy will now be known as hunter-guy (he likes to hunt.) So I get to hunter guys house at about 11. I won't give you play by play but it was surprisingly really good. We talked for awhile and then from about 1am to about 3 am got down to business. Then again from about 5:30 am to about 7 am. I got a total of about an hour of sleep, but that's o.k. I had lots of orgasms and that's all that's important. Oh and he said I was an 8 out of 10 as far as being good in bed. Not bad for the first time.
Well if all else fails at least I know hunter guy will make a good FTF which I know his is more than happy to be.
Yes I know I'm crazy and have issues, but that's o.k.! I kinda like the fact that I'm different. Well I'm actually not that different I just talk about stuff others won't.
Well now that I got laid, I can focus on all the stuff I have to do. I leave for Green Bay Friday morning and I still have to pack. I also have to get prepared for l.a. Not to mention I have a lot of other stuff to do - like try and find a job!
Hopefully you will find these last 3 blogs interesting. That's enough personal information for me to put out onto the web for one day.
Have a great one!!
Ever since I was 18. I have been attracted to guys in their 40's. Mainly because of the directness I think comes with age. There is less game playing when you get older. The other thing I have always been attracted to is a guy who is cocky. I refer to this as being an asshole, but it is really about someone who has confidence. They know they have something that your gonna like and keep coming back for. I also have tended to be with guys that are in the car business. Obviously since I've been in the car business for 10 years this makes sense. You tend to gravitate toward people your around all the time and people you have things in common with. It is also because guys that are in the car business have a cockiness about them. You have to be that way to sell cars. I'm that way too.
Well ten years later and I'm still attracted to cocky guys in their 40's. I had gotten away from this over the past year. I had mainly been with younger guys since I moved to mn. and I saw this as part of my problem. Recently I had been communicating with a guy I sold cars with out here. He is in 40's and definitely has a cockiness about him. When we worked together I thought he couldn't stand me. Probably part of the reason I'm sorta attracted to him. There is also the fact is a former marine. I have a soft spot for military - kinda plays into the cocky/asshole thing I like. Anyways, the only issue was he isn't my traditional type in looks department. Basically short and a little chubby. Not normally what I go for. Except at this point I was starting not to care. I had heard him talk about his sex life before and had a feeling he was a pretty good lay. So I might have to lower my standards to be able to have a bunch of orgasms - I think I can live with this fact.
So Monday we planned to get together for the first time when he got done with work. Funny side note - he warned me that he was "not a small guy." I had to laugh, I just responded that size is relative and I'm sure I would be fine. He text me he was gonna be late. I decided to go to the local bar and watch Monday night football while I waited. O.k. here is where it gets interesting. So I'm at this bar for about 3 hours. There aren't that many people in there, but I did notice one cute guy. Long story short, bar guy doesn't get the balls up to talk to me until I'm about to leave. Now I have a dilemma, I have a sure thing waiting for me but bar guy is really cute. I text my friend asking her what to do. She actually gave me great advice - she said go do your sure thing, but make sure you get bar guy's number. If you try to flirt with bar guy tonight - your gonna come on too strong cause your horny and your gonna scare him away. She was right I was coming on way too strong, so I gave him my number and left.
Oh, most guys I make reference to will have nick-names. So sure thing guy will now be known as hunter-guy (he likes to hunt.) So I get to hunter guys house at about 11. I won't give you play by play but it was surprisingly really good. We talked for awhile and then from about 1am to about 3 am got down to business. Then again from about 5:30 am to about 7 am. I got a total of about an hour of sleep, but that's o.k. I had lots of orgasms and that's all that's important. Oh and he said I was an 8 out of 10 as far as being good in bed. Not bad for the first time.
Well if all else fails at least I know hunter guy will make a good FTF which I know his is more than happy to be.
Yes I know I'm crazy and have issues, but that's o.k.! I kinda like the fact that I'm different. Well I'm actually not that different I just talk about stuff others won't.
Well now that I got laid, I can focus on all the stuff I have to do. I leave for Green Bay Friday morning and I still have to pack. I also have to get prepared for l.a. Not to mention I have a lot of other stuff to do - like try and find a job!
Hopefully you will find these last 3 blogs interesting. That's enough personal information for me to put out onto the web for one day.
Have a great one!!
Mandy's Sex Life - past year
Well I'm not going to go into to every sorted detail, but you need an overview for some things to make sense. Before moving to Minnesota, I had a very happy, healthy sex life. Obviously there were some bumps, but for the most part I was pretty content. Finding a FTF is l.a. was pretty easy. As funny as it sounds, the last guy I was with in L.A. was a recommendation. One of the guys I worked with was tired of hearing me bitch about how I hadn't gotten laid in 3 months. Oh by the way, 3 months of no sex is always my breaking point. I start to do really stupid things when that happens. I get bitchy after 2 weeks no sex, so you can imagine 3 months. Anyways my co-worker told me he had a friend who was single and didn't want a relationship and had a big cock. All very good things in my mind. Now how one guy knows another guys penis size, I don't really want to know, but whatever. It turned out to be true. Anyways, I started hooking up with Eric (the friend) about 3 months before I move to MN. He was phenomenal in bed and very well endowed (10+) Now I know this is t.m.i., but it 's important I promise. This being with a "big" guy thing had been a pattern for me for about the past 2 years. It was like all of sudden I had a sign of my forehead that said I could handle big penis and they seeked me out. Not that I'm complaining.
So, life was happy (at least in the sex department). I was getting laid properly at least twice a week. Then I go and decide to move half way across the country. I was having a lot of personal issues and at the very least needed a change of pace and a break from the craziness. Eric was very upset when I told him I was moving but I had to do what I had to do.
Now it's February in Minnesota. It's cold. I know very few people and I'm started to get horny. I'm not going to go through every single encounter, but here is an overview. The first couple of guys I hooked up with were absolutely gorgeous. Great bodies, good looks, but absolutely horrible in bed (and average 6-7.) One quick note on the size thing - there is nothing wrong with average if you know what your doing. I had just been used to bigger and it takes time for your body to adjust (about 6 months.) Then I thought o.k. maybe it's mn. guys or maybe it's just cause they were really hot and didn't feel they needed to try as hard. I went with the later. I refused to believe I couldn't find a decent lay in this state. Although I was starting to worry there was no shortage of small penis in this state, especially since I had been told this by many people. I felt I could deal with a "small guy" if he was good in bed (or at least tried.) So I decided to give the short, fat guy a go. Now he was kinda of an asshole and a big flirt (which is so my type) and somehow managed to pull some very nice pink. He was a decent lay and was o.k. with the FTF arrangement. This lasted for about 3 months until I meet my last boyfriend. He was great in bed, but wanted more than an FTF arrangement. Against my better judgement I decided to be his girlfriend. Well that ended about 2 months ago. So back to square one again. A couple weeks after the break-up I hooked up with my two beautiful boys again. It was actually pretty good but just a temporary fix. Then the past month and half was weird. I don't know quite how to explain this. Basically, I messed around with two different guys during that time, but no sex happened. They were fun sexual experiences, but not 100% fulfilling.
So there was a couple different things going on in my mind. In a few weeks, I will be in L.A. and I will definitely be getting laid and properly. But then there is also the fact that it's been two months no penis! L.A. will make it 3 months and remember 3 months - bad! What's a girl to do? Now it didn't help that I've been talking to a friend that is very sexual also. I don't know why - but when your a sexual person and if you are around other sexually charged people, it makes things worse - meaning you get hornier than normal. So I'm horny and l.a. is still a month away. There was a guy I'd been talking to but he feel into the short, fat category. Eeehhhhh, what to do? And for those of you thinking - how bout toys or self stimulation. Well I already do that on an average of 5 times a day. There are just times when you need penis. So ideally I want to find an FTF out here, but on the other hand I just need to get laid, but I really hate one night stands.
Well the solution is in the next blog, which will explain what happened Monday night.
Stay tuned....
So, life was happy (at least in the sex department). I was getting laid properly at least twice a week. Then I go and decide to move half way across the country. I was having a lot of personal issues and at the very least needed a change of pace and a break from the craziness. Eric was very upset when I told him I was moving but I had to do what I had to do.
Now it's February in Minnesota. It's cold. I know very few people and I'm started to get horny. I'm not going to go through every single encounter, but here is an overview. The first couple of guys I hooked up with were absolutely gorgeous. Great bodies, good looks, but absolutely horrible in bed (and average 6-7.) One quick note on the size thing - there is nothing wrong with average if you know what your doing. I had just been used to bigger and it takes time for your body to adjust (about 6 months.) Then I thought o.k. maybe it's mn. guys or maybe it's just cause they were really hot and didn't feel they needed to try as hard. I went with the later. I refused to believe I couldn't find a decent lay in this state. Although I was starting to worry there was no shortage of small penis in this state, especially since I had been told this by many people. I felt I could deal with a "small guy" if he was good in bed (or at least tried.) So I decided to give the short, fat guy a go. Now he was kinda of an asshole and a big flirt (which is so my type) and somehow managed to pull some very nice pink. He was a decent lay and was o.k. with the FTF arrangement. This lasted for about 3 months until I meet my last boyfriend. He was great in bed, but wanted more than an FTF arrangement. Against my better judgement I decided to be his girlfriend. Well that ended about 2 months ago. So back to square one again. A couple weeks after the break-up I hooked up with my two beautiful boys again. It was actually pretty good but just a temporary fix. Then the past month and half was weird. I don't know quite how to explain this. Basically, I messed around with two different guys during that time, but no sex happened. They were fun sexual experiences, but not 100% fulfilling.
So there was a couple different things going on in my mind. In a few weeks, I will be in L.A. and I will definitely be getting laid and properly. But then there is also the fact that it's been two months no penis! L.A. will make it 3 months and remember 3 months - bad! What's a girl to do? Now it didn't help that I've been talking to a friend that is very sexual also. I don't know why - but when your a sexual person and if you are around other sexually charged people, it makes things worse - meaning you get hornier than normal. So I'm horny and l.a. is still a month away. There was a guy I'd been talking to but he feel into the short, fat category. Eeehhhhh, what to do? And for those of you thinking - how bout toys or self stimulation. Well I already do that on an average of 5 times a day. There are just times when you need penis. So ideally I want to find an FTF out here, but on the other hand I just need to get laid, but I really hate one night stands.
Well the solution is in the next blog, which will explain what happened Monday night.
Stay tuned....
The weekend - Harleys and shotguns!
Wow - these past few days have been crazy. It's gonna take 3 blogs to fill you in. This one will be short. Just a couple funny things that happened over the weekend. My aunt was out of town and told me that our friend Rick needed to come over to pick up some band equipment. Rick is an old family friend. He has know my mom and aunt since they were kids. He's kinda like an uncle to me. Anyways, Lisa said she told Rick that I would call him around 1pm, since this is when I normally wake up. I was offended by this remark since I had been busting my ass all week cleaning barn and lately I have been up no later than 8am. I told her I would call him in the morning. Well Friday after having lunch with my cousin and friend and their daughters, I decided to clean barn and workout. I had one too many energy drinks at lunch and over did it. I cleaned barn for 2 hours, then went on a 3 mile run, then did an hour work-out. After that I was up till about mid-night doing random things - cleaning, making to-do lists, etc. Needless to say, I didn't wake up till 1:45pm on Saturday! Oh well. Rick came over around 2:30 and I was still in p.j.s. He asked if I wanted to go on a Harley ride. I thought it was a great idea, since the weather won't allow that for very much longer. He was a little concerned about my back and I told him I would be fine. About half way through the ride he asked how I was doing - I said fine. Then he asked how the vibration was and I said "I like it." He laughed so hard I thought he was going to crash. He forgets that my mind is constantly in the gutter. Anyways we went to dinner and I told him all about my FTF thing and I thought this little old lady behind me was gonna have a heart-attack! Oh well - that's what she gets for ease-dropping. Rick dropped me off and I asked him if he could teach me how to shoot a shotgun since it gets scary on the farm when Lisa is out of town and the only gun she has is a 12-gauge shot gun. He said yes.
So Sunday, I went over to Rick's and he taught me how to shoot. I can't tell you how great it was. I had a mini-orgasm every time that gun went off. He was teaching me how to jack the shell through the chamber after each shot. I lost track of the rounds and I said "hey Rick did I jack off the gun?" He started laughing hysterically. He told me I have a funny sense of humor. I wasn't really trying to be funny, it's just the brain in the gutter syndrome and I don't know weapon terminology.
One other funny Rick thing then I'm done with this blog. When Lisa got home Monday night from work, she ran in the house and grabbed the phone and said she had to make a very important phone call. She said it was Rick's b-day. So we wished him a happy birthday. Rick told Lisa that his step-son Chris saw him with me on the Harley on Saturday and wondered who the cute blond was. Rick told him it was me and Lisa said he shouldn't have it, would have been a good running joke. Rick said "yeah right - everyone knows the only way I can get a cute blond like Mandy is to pay." Lisa then said "you don't have to pay Mandy, she's free." I'm like gee thanks Lisa.
Great weekend all in all. I had fun and did fun and new things. This takes you to Monday, which is when all the fun happened, but I'm gonna have to do some back story so Monday makes more sense. So that will be the next blog, which I really suggest you read.
Hugs and Kisses!
So Sunday, I went over to Rick's and he taught me how to shoot. I can't tell you how great it was. I had a mini-orgasm every time that gun went off. He was teaching me how to jack the shell through the chamber after each shot. I lost track of the rounds and I said "hey Rick did I jack off the gun?" He started laughing hysterically. He told me I have a funny sense of humor. I wasn't really trying to be funny, it's just the brain in the gutter syndrome and I don't know weapon terminology.
One other funny Rick thing then I'm done with this blog. When Lisa got home Monday night from work, she ran in the house and grabbed the phone and said she had to make a very important phone call. She said it was Rick's b-day. So we wished him a happy birthday. Rick told Lisa that his step-son Chris saw him with me on the Harley on Saturday and wondered who the cute blond was. Rick told him it was me and Lisa said he shouldn't have it, would have been a good running joke. Rick said "yeah right - everyone knows the only way I can get a cute blond like Mandy is to pay." Lisa then said "you don't have to pay Mandy, she's free." I'm like gee thanks Lisa.
Great weekend all in all. I had fun and did fun and new things. This takes you to Monday, which is when all the fun happened, but I'm gonna have to do some back story so Monday makes more sense. So that will be the next blog, which I really suggest you read.
Hugs and Kisses!
Friday, October 15, 2010
couple updates then topics of the day - spitting game and FTF's
I had a realization today. I'm going to the Packer/Vikings game at Lambeau Field next weekend. How am I supposed to loose 10 lbs by November 1st when I'm gonna be in the land of cheese, bratwurst and beer. These are some of my favorite things. Oh well - I'll figure something out. I'm super excited about getting to visit l.a., I can't wait. My mom did some magic to make it happen and I'm so grateful. I can't wait to see my friends, especially my boys. I miss hanging out with the guys I used to work with at the dealer back home so much. I haven't been able to bond with anyone out here like I did with those guys, of course I've known them for close to ten years. The one thing I found funny is how one of the first calls I made was to make sure I'm gonna get handled. I'm so messed in the head sometimes. What can I say? I have needs!
Which leads me nicely into the topic of the day. Spitting game. I got told recently ways to improve my game. I found this hysterical. Mainly because of who it came from. The advice was to play hard to get. This isn't bad advice, it just doesn't suit what I'm trying to achieve. It is my opinion that when most people spit game they are trying to achieve one of two goals. Either they are trying to get laid that night or they are trying to meet someone that can be potential dating material. Since my goal is a little different, my game is a little different. I have no desire to be in a relationship, nor do I have any desire for a one night stand. I prefer to have what most people call "friends with benefits." I hate that term because it reminds me of high school. I prefer to call it FTF's (friends that f...) It is basically when two people get together a couple times a week to have sex. It's great if you can hangout as friends also, but for me that is not a requirement. In fact for me the less socializing outside of the bedroom the better. Now I know people having many varying opinions on this and believe me I've heard them all. This is just something that has worked for me. Anytime I tried something else, like marriage for example, I got burned. Now just so we are clear on my whole FTF thing. I am committed to the person I'm with, in the sense that I don't sleep with anyone else. I hope the other person is the same way, but I don't have any real expectation that they are. The couple times I was in these kind of relationships, they lasted a very long time. One last 2 years and the other 3 years. I am just someone that doesn't deal well with commitment and these relationships give me what I need.
I will definitely talk about this more in the future, especially because I have failed miserably trying to find this kind of relationship out here. Not really that surprising since people are more conservative out here. Well to a certain extent. There are a lot of freaky people in this state. Actually I think people out here are more sexual or at least more sexually adventurous, they just don't talk about it at all. I have gotten hit up for more three-somes and all kinds of other sexual acts since I've been out here. A whole lot more than I ever did in l.a.
O.k. that's it for tonight. I will leave you to ponder this though - Is it possible to find someone that is crazy in bed without them being crazy in the head?
Have a great Friday!
Which leads me nicely into the topic of the day. Spitting game. I got told recently ways to improve my game. I found this hysterical. Mainly because of who it came from. The advice was to play hard to get. This isn't bad advice, it just doesn't suit what I'm trying to achieve. It is my opinion that when most people spit game they are trying to achieve one of two goals. Either they are trying to get laid that night or they are trying to meet someone that can be potential dating material. Since my goal is a little different, my game is a little different. I have no desire to be in a relationship, nor do I have any desire for a one night stand. I prefer to have what most people call "friends with benefits." I hate that term because it reminds me of high school. I prefer to call it FTF's (friends that f...) It is basically when two people get together a couple times a week to have sex. It's great if you can hangout as friends also, but for me that is not a requirement. In fact for me the less socializing outside of the bedroom the better. Now I know people having many varying opinions on this and believe me I've heard them all. This is just something that has worked for me. Anytime I tried something else, like marriage for example, I got burned. Now just so we are clear on my whole FTF thing. I am committed to the person I'm with, in the sense that I don't sleep with anyone else. I hope the other person is the same way, but I don't have any real expectation that they are. The couple times I was in these kind of relationships, they lasted a very long time. One last 2 years and the other 3 years. I am just someone that doesn't deal well with commitment and these relationships give me what I need.
I will definitely talk about this more in the future, especially because I have failed miserably trying to find this kind of relationship out here. Not really that surprising since people are more conservative out here. Well to a certain extent. There are a lot of freaky people in this state. Actually I think people out here are more sexual or at least more sexually adventurous, they just don't talk about it at all. I have gotten hit up for more three-somes and all kinds of other sexual acts since I've been out here. A whole lot more than I ever did in l.a.
O.k. that's it for tonight. I will leave you to ponder this though - Is it possible to find someone that is crazy in bed without them being crazy in the head?
Have a great Friday!
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